The bitch I'm talking about is not the 'bitch on wheels' or the mean-spirited character that Joan Collins played on Dynasty. Nor is it the classic 'office bitch' who is hated by everyone at work. The woman I'm describing is kind yet strong. She has a strength that is ever so subtle. She doesn't give up her life, and she won't chase a man. She won't let a man think he has a 100 percent 'hold' on her. And she'll stand up for herself when he steps over the line. She knows what she wants but won't compromise herself to get it. But she's feminine, like a 'Steel Magnolia' -- flowery on the outside and steel on the inside. She uses this very femininity to her own advantage. It isn't that she takes undue advantage of men, because she plays fair. She has one thing the nice girl doesn't: a presence of mind because she isn't swept away by a romantic fantasy. This presence of mind enables her to wield her power when it is necessary. In addition, she has the ability to remain cool under pressure. Whereas a woman who is 'too nice' give and gives until she is depleted, the woman with presence of mind knows when to pull back.
-- WHY MEN LOVE BITCHES, Sherry Argov
And so I thought I already pulled back even before you get the chance to play your trick on me. But no, it just apparently made you hungry for attention. Not that you still want me, but probably just to awaken my almost paralyzed heart.
Not through your sweet words. Not even by doing wonderful things you've done for me before.
But the other way around.
I am tired. I am saddened by what you did. I am deeply hurt. My heart may not be that bruised, but my ego's damaged.
Yes, I am often misunderstood. Never a day goes by that I do not receive judgment. Oftentimes, from people who only see me as two peaks walking together, with a long and deep river in between. Sometimes I hate that fact, but more often than not, I don't waste my time defending myself. I wouldn't want people to adore me for pretending to be someone I am not. But it's not for you to direct my life's drama; never assume the role of a protagonist. You are not worthy of any part, not even cameo.
Just be part of the audience. And watch me get my happily ever after.
Nonetheless, I would like to commend you for making my heart rise from the dead. Thank you for making me realize that I still have emotions. No matter how negative they can be.
Thank you for tearing up this bitch's heart, it just strengthens her realization that you will never be, in any way, worthy of her love.
Amid all hatred, she will remain to be a bitch.
The sweetest and the most genuine bitch anyone could love.