Her ears are famished, weary hanging around.
They are getting drowsy, waiting for something they aimed to hear…
to soothe her soul,
to pacify her yearning,
to paint a touch of pink...
around her world of gloom
Just three words,
from those gorgeous lips
owned by someone...
her eyes are yet to see.
Someone who’s brave enough
to destroy the walls she had built around her heart,
to eliminate the fears in her core,
to bring her back to her senses,
to lift her spirits up,
to reinstate the faith that was gone.
Just three words…
three mind-blowing words…
one perfect line…
And everything will be alright. :)
-- from my old entry, dated 1.12.2009
Months had passed and my needs have changed. Nowadays, I often hear these words from someone really special. So often that it's like listening to a cockatoo saying, "I love you! I love you! I love you!" over and over again. Yes, I needed these words to make me feel special, to make me feel loved. But then again, I realized that words are actually not enough for you feel good about yourself. Action speaks louder than words, cliche, indeed.
I Love You has been a communicable disease that has been trying to kill my heart.. even my whole life. Something that has been incessantly attempting to break my way of thinking. I won't ask you to stop, though. I already did that several times already, yet you just didn't break off. I know you'll get tired eventually... something that I am continuously hoping to happen. But even if I just allow you to do whatever you want, I'm proud to say that I don't give you what you always ask for.
Had my immune system been weak, had I not been taking Vitamin D (for dedma), had "research materials" not been coming my way... it could have been detrimental days for me. Because I know for a fact that your charm's kinda irresistible, you're like this powerful flu that's been going around. You make women fall so hard, as if they're living under your spell. You are sooo lovable.. yet loving you is not for fainthearted.
Despite the fact that I was almost captured, I still followed my instincts. I think too much heartaches in the past became one of my vitamins, aside from vitamin D that I've been taking nowadays. Those pinches in my heart inflicted by someone in my past boosted my immune system. Good thing, they didn't contradict with some existing bacteria in my heart. Thank you, heartbreaker, my heart now is as robust as your heart during those times when all I had to do was to ask for your love and care.
And to you, my "friend": Regardless of everything, despite wooing and chronic lying at the same time, I still wish that you fix your life. Be contented with what you have. Now that I realized a lot of things, I'll stand firm.. once is enough. I will just treasure those memories as you, somehow, were once a special part of my life. Nevertheless, I won't go back to my old stupid self. And I hate to find out that I might be causing sorrow to someone else.
PS: I just heard this from an upcoming series starring Maricar Reyes (yeah, the girl in Hayden's videos):
I want a man.. who wants me to be his woman.. and not his other woman.