I'LL TELL YOU HOW THE SUN ROSE

EMILY DICKINSON

I'll tell you how the sun rose,--
A ribbon at a time.
The steeples swam in amethyst,
The news like squirrels ran.
The hills untied their bonnets,
The bobolinks begun.
Then I said softly to myself,
"That must have been the sun!"

But how he set, I know not.
There seemed a purple stile
Which little yellow boys and girls
Were climbing all the while
Till when they reached the other side,
A dominie in gray
Put gently up the evening bars,
And led the flock away.

1. Panglao sunrise, 2007. (taken using a Nokia N95 cam phone)
2. & 3. Selangor sunset, Malaysia. 2008. (taken using a P&S Olympus S740)
4. & 5. Boracay sunset, 2008. (Taken using a P&S Olumpus S740)

:) :) :)

Thank you for painting a smile on my face.
Thank you for showing me that I am loved.
Thank you for contradicting everything that I used to believe in...
that's when I realized I knew just a few things.
And as the song says "you make me believe in love and not the perfect kind.. a real messy beautiful.."
But I don't wanna dedicate that song to you.. because that was for somebody else.. some real asshole..
You are different.
Because you are the only man who has the balls to tell me I'm not pretty.. I'm not sexy.. and I am nothing.
But I believe in you..
that's why look at me now.. I lost my confidence.. hahahah! :D

GOODMINTON

I love playing fast,
the same way that I want to fulfill my goals real fast.
I know it ain’t right; they say I should take things one step at a time.

But who are they to blame me…
I’ve been stuck at the bench for such a long time since my last game.

Now that my time to play has arrived, I want to give my best.
It distressed me how I was always defeated back then,
I never even had a considerable point.

Even if I knew how to give the best service,
that didn’t mean the cock would return smoothly.
Most of the time they would smash it, and goes directly to my surface.

It would hurt, like I’ve been hit by the racket.
'Coz even how small, or what the instrument was.. the hurt would still be the same.

Now that I am fully renewed, I am thrilled to take a chance again.
To play the game, to give the best service like before.
I’d take the risks.. I’d embrace all the hurt..
I’d smash the cock and give my all.
I’d run fast but carefully.. I’d play with precision,
so as not to injure my feet and stay put on the court,
for me to play longer..
every minute, every hour, every single day of my life..
until the last drop of sweat,
until the last amount of energy,
until my shoes lose their soles
and the power of my racket wears off.

In the end, I know everything will be worth the pain….
I would learn to love every single game that I play – may I win or lose.  :)

CLOSURE

Finally, after seven long years I heard you say sorry to me. For leaving me hanging on a twisted relationship. For not giving me the chance to love you more. For being scared of me (haha!  :P ). For turning your back on me without even saying goodbye. For hurting me.

I have to be honest, you messed up my heart when you suddenly appeared recently. But at the end of the day I hold on to that eloquent mind that I showed you when I was still young. I’m letting go of my desire to get back in your arms. I’m letting go of everything about you. I’m letting go of your love.

Today, we finally said goodbye to the old feelings. But I still have high regard for you… as you made me happy.. even just for a while. I can still remember how you swept me off my feet. It still makes me smile. Apart from the heartbreak, you never treated me wrong. You are one perfect gentleman. And it’s nice that even up to now all I get from you is respect and 100% care.

Thank you for respecting my decision. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for giving me this finale that I truly deserve. It was nice being your “princess” … once upon a time.

And yeah, you’re right.. you’ve lost me forever…

Don’t worry.. we’ll live happily ever after.. apart…. :)